i hate liers.. alot..

why do some people like to lie so much, even though its already out..
lying to hurt ppl
lying to keep your on secret
lying so that it will go your way
but do you noe how will he feel?
do you even really care abt him?
i wish i can blurt everying thing out in my post, but i cant..
jus afraid some ppl might see..
i dun mind if you wan to lie to him, but please dun use lie to hurt him..
it sux alright!
i wonder if you noe i'm talking abt you.. bitch..








the second song for the girl..

title: goodbye

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PGOcQZjESY

I can honestly say you've been on my mind
since I woke up today,
up today I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

(chorus)

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is Goodbye

I woke up this morning
And played are song
And throwing my tears, I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
Cause I know I'm waisting my time
And I don't mind

(chorus)

I remember when we kissed I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I'm surprise to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
You remember the simple things
We talked til we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Is saying Goodbye
Saying Goodbye
oooh Goodbye

my heart achs whn i hear this song..
this song only show half of my life..
only the first half,
will the second half happen?
i dono..

for this girl

to the girl.. thks for the memories, i'm posting this song specially for you, hope you like it (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wj4xLfJGVrI

you make me feel

i've been trying to reach you'
cause i've got something to say
but you're talking about
just nothing at alland you're slipping away
we were crying together
it was a long time ago
before you walk out that door
and leave me this way
just hear what i say

chorus

you make me feel
you make me real
for the rest of my days
in so many ways
you make me feel
i've been trying to leave you
why should we go on like this
but my heart can't breathe
when i hear you say
it's better this way

repeat chorus

ten thousand light years away from you
keep thinking maybe it's time to let go
but by the end of the dayi still want to say 'do you '

this song means alot to me though (:
take care

the new post (:

well, another day gone :]
today got back some of my results..
suxs like hell man x.x
well, wat is done is done, i'll jus have to work harder the next time :]
nicholas, jiayous!! (:
oh ya, bel bel, dun think too much le ok? O.O
[: i'm here if you need me, my ear and shoulder lend you anytime [:

lastly, to all my friends, jiayous!! dun give up even though your results are poor [:
you guys can do it [:
aaron, taff, kang qiao, kalinda, yuan rong, zarinar and bel you too XD

emmanuel :]

well, this would be my confirmation name :] cool rite >< dono why, my hand is trembling nw x.x i oso very long nvr post le.. haha, somehow things have been goin my way qiute smoothly now a days :] hope this would go on :) nicholas, jiayous! :]

x.x

after so long, i felt much more better already.. but i seem uneasy nw, cause i'm asking you who is the guy you love.. actually i think its quite unfair for the guy.. you didnt tell him anything and you are upset wif him, how would he noe?
i really pity this guy.. well, what is in the past is in the past.. i wonder what is my feelings nw.. it is developing a new one, but i'm not sure if it is rite.. well, its someone special to me, only kalinda noes the secret >< shhh dun say out :]

wondering how u forget me so quickly

i'm seriously wondering, how did you forget me so quickly...
i still can't let you go and you fell in love with someone already..
you told me you would not want another boyfriend if you insist, but looks like you are wrong, you have found yourself another partner.. when i knew abt it, my heart jus sank and broke.. i wish you could tell me, but you just wont say. i need to let you go, but i dono how, i dono where to start, my mum told me some things yesterday and i finally understand fully why you break up with me. i noe i cant stop you from loving another guy.. but i wish i noe who is it, i wish to noe you more..
i just need to let you go, but i dono how..and i felt more jealous and hurt whn i noe u fell in love with him, maybe the him is the person which always stand by you, the one which u do not want to tell me..
i want to let you go, so i wont feel hurt, so i dun need to care so much, so i can be smiling and be happy again... the problem is i dono how to start, i dono how to let u go..
the last time i did, it was when i was having a course for the whole day,and it was for abt a week.. i nearly let you go, the reason i came back was when you fell sick and you were hospitalised... i was too soft.. nw, jus thinking, i dun really want to care anymore.. if you really love him, i wish you good luck and hope he understands you more thn me.. take care..
yesterday, my mum told me some things and i remember this sentence..

first, you have to understand yourself, next your friends and lastly, ur girlfriend...

my old life..

yes, lots of things have happen since i update..
these few days, i have found all my answers to all my problems,
lots of unhappy things just happen to me and i have over come it with my closest friend's help.
yes, 28 august.. abt midnite, that is the end for us, although i hated the answer, i still must accept the fact anf the truth.
we just do not understand each other and always misunderstanding each other.
i noe its difficult for me to move on, thks to yuan rong and kang qiao, they tried to cheer me up, thks alot, it means alot to me. zarinar mei also accompany a few times but she was quite busy, thks too :]
lastly, kalinda, always there for me, anytime anywhere, the only problem is that raynian do not like it.. so i will have to control i guess..
but she will still be there for me :]
accompany me the whole day :] i appreciate it alot,
actually i wanted to pour out everything to my mum, but she has been having so much stress and also need to watch out for my sister. i jus dun want her to have another problem to think abt.
today my mum told me i shld not keep everything to myself and have to pour out to god or i could to tok him if i needed a listening ear. i did not tell my mum about my problems and she sort of like knew everything, it is like god trying to tell me something, that is the first thing that struck me.
number to, one of the msg of hers that struck me and gave me a great impact..
there is no use crying over spilled milk..
lastly which is my mum again, she keep asking me how am i wif bel.. i jus do not know wat to reply and jus lied that we are ok, it is like my mum knew everything and even know that i have been talking less about her, i hope i can tell her soon..
today is a tiring day, i'm goin to sleep, nites everybody :]